Confession #15: I don't like ultimatums

I have a confession to make...I don't take ultimatums well, so it is best that you not issue them to me. I tend to do the exactly what you are telling me I must do. If you tell me I can't leave your church because I am the "pastor's wife" and my husband will suffer the consequences, I will stay and do my damnedest to make this church better and better does not mean "your way!" In fact, it will most likely mean the opposite and you will not like it.

I am not someone you can befriend and then make an enemy and then turn around and try to befriend again. It doesn't work that way. Make up your mind. If I am trying to kill your church, if I am as awful as you say I am, why on earth do you want to be my friend? You are a fool if you think I can't see what you are attempting. You've backstabbed me too often for me not to be overly cautious.

Overly cautious to the point where I don't even allow my children to attend this church. They know something is wrong. They don't understand why you are treating their parents like you are and then claiming to care for them and love them. You can't love them but be unwilling to defend them against false, stupid accusations...you cannot have it both ways. Which is it?

God, make up your damn minds and stop you whining!